As November is drawing to a close, I'm faced with a surprising emotion.
Yeah, I'm jealous of the NaNoers. I'm jealous of all of you who now have a shiny new draft to play with. Because here I am, still tinkering with the same old thing. I'm a little sick of it, to tell you the truth, and I wish I had something new to work on.
However, I am glad I didn't do it. NaNo, that is. I'm glad I kept my focus on my WIP.
I wanted to NaNo. I sat down on November 1st and typed up about 1,000 words of the SNI that's been floating around in my head. I have the whole thing plotted and planned in the ol' noggin, but as soon as I sat down and tried to put it out there, it sucked.
And I know that's the spirit of NaNo...write whatever you want and don't worry about sucking! You can fix it later!
But I don't want this one to suck. I want it to be good. And even though I know I could have fixed it later, I looked at that first 1,000 words and thought this isn't my story.
(Because it sucked.)
So, even though I'm jealous of those of you with new stories to play with, I have to accept the fact that it's not my SNI's time yet. I still need to give my current ms all the love I can give it, so when it comes time for me to put finger to keys, I can make it as good as it needs to be.
(Because, let's be honest, I'm still cleaning up the suckage of NaNo '08 over here. I can't start off THAT crappy again...it will take years to fix!)
So, who did NaNo? Did you finish? (Or will you?) If you didn't, did you still accomplish something this month? I hope so.