Thursday, January 27, 2011

Sleepy Time

I get pretty jealous when I read blogs and tweets and hear about all of these writers who stay up until all hours of the night getting stuff done.

I just can't do it. I CAN'T. I NEED to be in bed by 11pm or I can't function.

I'm really wishing I was one of those people who could be perky and productive with only 5 hours of sleep, but, seriously, if I don't get a full eight hours I am completely useless to the world.*

I'm thinking of all of the things I could get done with those extra hours at night. I'm making molasses-like progress on my WIP. I could go three times faster if I didn't need to fall asleep so early! Oh, the blogs I could write! Oh, the books I could read!

And the most irritating thing is that every night this week I have fallen asleep on the couch at around 7 or 8pm.

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE taking naps. But I have precious little time at night after work as it is. And did I mention that these naps have been in the TWO HOUR range? And then I still go to sleep at 11!

I'm blaming it on the fact that it is finals week at school, which is making all of the students INSANE. And insane students turn me into this emotionally exhausted shell of the person I once was. I almost had a nervous breakdown today when they walked in the class and cried, "WHAT? WE HAVE A FINAL TODAY?", when, for the love of Pete, I've been telling them about it every day for the past three weeks.

So I'm thinking that's why I can barely keep my eyes open when I get home these days.**

It's made me sad, though, because I've had so much I wanted to do. I got some great comments on a chapter from a CP that I wanted to implement. I have an online crit group that has been sorely neglected and has tons of stuff that needs my comments. There is the MFA ap essay that I keep writing the really killer first sentence of. And then there is this blog. Man, do I feel bad that all of these people came over from the Mr. Linky's on Tahereh's blog and found that whiny post waiting for them.***

Anyway, today after the kids left my room and I was done crying, I went and got a massage. And I kinda, sorta fell asleep there for a little bit. And now I feel like a new person, and I'm going to try to be productive this evening and NOT fall asleep on the couch at 7pm like the rest of this week.

I'll still have to be in bed by 11, though. There's nothing we can do about that.


*Please spare me the "wait until you have kids!" Why do you think I DON'T have kids?


**Well, maybe Tuesday was because of these tacos we got for dinner. I don't know WHAT was in the tacos, but my husband and I both fell asleep after eating them. He even slept through the Lakers game, so you know there was some serious sedative in those tacos.


***Sorry, new people! Please stick around!

13 comments:

  1. Dude - I have a kid and I am STILL completely useless when I have less than 6-7 hours of sleep! The first 10 months Sammie didn't sleep...and I felt like a zombie (I know how much you love zombies!) - it was hell and probably contributes to why she will be an only child!

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  2. Seriously...this is the number one reason I can't have kids! I get 6-7 hours per night during the work week, and I catch up with 9-10 hours per night on the weekends :/

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  3. Lol I can stay up late (student) but while I can be very creative (sleeping inner censor), I do not like the feeling that I am a nuclear weapon armed and waiting to go off.

    Not kidding.

    In general (see my blog) my fuse is remarkably short.

    On little sleep... I don't have one.

    So... I give the six hours minimum sacred treatment. Almost nothing gets in my way.

    Oh and btw, I get annoyed with dumbass students and I'm a student. Can't imagine how it must be for you.

    :-)

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  4. LOL. Don't worry -- I'm a new people and I'm sticking around. And I'm the SAME way. I envy those writers who scribble until 3AM. Nope. Not. Me. And in a former life, I used to teach and that can take a whole lot of life out of a person, especially when you're grading tons of papers and finals. I'd blame it on the season, too (and I do for me, since I'm in snowy Boston), but you're in sunny CA...so NO complaining about that. ;)

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  5. Ever since I was a kid, I have made myself have a bedtime. I cannot wake up if I don't. (wait, ok there was a short time in my early 20's where I could get up after going out all night and come home from work, take a nap and then go out all over again...not sure how I did that) I HAVE to go to bed at 10. It takes me a while to go to sleep so that is why I make it so early. Plus, this way, if my fiance and I have things to talk about in bed, we have time. He usually falls asleep quick though =( LUCKY.

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  6. I'm the exact same way! I need at least 7-8 hours of sleep a night. I have no idea what I'll do when I have kids. I try to set a weeknight schedule for myself so I work a little every day. And then I try to get tons of writing done over the weekend.

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  7. I know exactly how you feel. Sleep, I need it. I need like 9 hours of it to function. I don't understand how my husband goes to sleep at least 2 hours after me and walks up like 1-2 hours before me. That makes no sense to me!

    I only did one all-nighter in my life, when I was forced to at work, and I ended up getting sick for like a week because of it. NOT worth it!!!

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  8. Haha wow I wish I could sleep as much as you do. I get insomnia at least once a month, it's a terrible feeling!

    Belly B
    http://www.bforbel.com

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  9. I had to laugh about you warning the kids three weeks in advance about the finals, and them acting like it was a big surprise - because that's exactly how I am about Christmas! I mean, I KNOW it comes every year. Same time, even. And yet I'm always scrambling around at the last minute wondering, "where did THAT come from?" I guess we never learn...

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  10. I like going to bed early too. By the way, I think it's awesome that you're a high school English teacher. When I was in high school, I really looked up to and was encouraged by my English teacher and to this day I think fondly of how she really molded me into who I am.

    I tried substituting once and didn't like it (so that's another reason why I think you're awesome). All the kids came up to me one-by-one saying they needed to really use the bathroom and so I told them to go. There's no way I'm not going to let someone use the bathroom if they really need to go...that's just not right. Only thing was...they never came back and at the end of class I had like maybe 10 people left in their seats. Buncha jerks really pulled one over on me and I was trying to be nice.

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  11. I feel ya. I am usually just getting the writing party started after everyone else goes to bed. But staying up until 2 just doesn't fly with my early classes this semester. I miss my late night writing time.

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  12. Try to not be so hard on yourself. I am also one of those people that can't function on less than eight hours of sleep. Less than that and I feel nauseous all day and that doesn't do anybody any good.

    Sounds like your body is trying to tell you something. Maybe you're just stressed and need a little extra down time to recoup. Everything will work out in the end.

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