Monday, April 11, 2011

Goals For the Week - 4/11/11 (And A Pretty Big Decision)

Week One of Spring Break is in the books. It wasn't as relaxing as I had hoped it would be, but I did get to do some fun things. Yay for fun!

Ok, let's recap.

Goals for the week of 4/4 
*I'm behind on critiquing manuscripts. I have one that has been sitting in my inbox for awhile now, so I need to get on that!
I started...and it's awesome! My friends are so talented. 


*Read at least one book...but with the extra free time, I'd really like to read more. I'm only at 14 books for the year, which is really behind where I'd like to be.
Let's not talk about it.


*I don't even know what goals to give myself on the WIP...I literally have no idea what I'm going to be able to achieve and what I am capable of getting done. This is such a non-goal, but I just want to MAKE SOME MAJOR PROGRESS. 
I didn't do this. I didn't open it once. I made excuse after excuse. So this led me to a decision that I'll detail more below. 



*Get started right away in the morning and/or don't feel bad about leaving the dog home alone and go work at Panera. 
I tried. Oh lord, I tried. I packed up my computer and drove to Panera. But on the way I realized I forgot my headphones. I can't work there without music. So I stopped by TJ Maxx to pick some up. But then I thought, ugh, why spend money on headphones when I have 2 perfectly good pairs at home. But I couldn't go back and get them because that would make the dog sad. And then I thought about the sad look the dog gives me, and, really, I could do work at home just as easily at Panera, so I went home instead and snuggled with the dog. 


I am such a sucker for that little guy, I swear. 


*Start going to yoga this week. 
I did this! I went twice and I really love it. It's been on my mind lately to start something active again, and I think yoga is going to be the perfect fit for me. I got a cheap month at this studio through LivingSocial, then I have a free week at another studio. We'll see which one I like better and decide to start going to regularly. 


Yeah, I did a pretty crappy job with my goals this week. 


Ok, so my big decision. 


I decided to put my WIP away for awhile and start something new. 


I didn't want to do this AT ALL. I made a promise to myself that I was going to take this novel as far as I could take it. I was going to polish it to the best of my ability and query it to 100 rejections. I wanted more than anything to get this thing written. 


But the thing is, it's just become...I don't know. I can't really explain it. It started out as one thing, but I didn't feel like that one thing was good enough, so I added this and that and this and that, and all the adding has taken it so far away from what I wanted it to be. It has gotten to the point that it is so far from the thing I started that I don't even want to work on it anymore. I know that writing is hard work, but this one isn't even fun anymore, and I'm finding ways to justify to myself not working on it. 


So I'm taking a break. 


Maybe I'll go back to it, maybe I won't. I've always felt in my heard that it's not going to be the one. And as soon as I made this decision (while I was getting a massage on Friday...heh) I felt so full of inner peace (yes, I'm aware at how crunchy and new-agey that sounds) that I just knew this was the right thing for me to do right now. It was like a weight had been lifted. 


It kills me to take 2 years of work and put it away, but I feel like it's such a hot mess that I don't really have a choice. 


So, I'm going to put all of my energy into drafting the idea I've been poking at for awhile now. Yay! I'm glad I have a whole week of Spring Break left to get started.


Goals for the week of 4/11


*Read two books


*Outline New Idea (I really like the Snowflake method of outlining, and I'm going to give that a try)


Keeping the goals simple so I don't get discouraged. I'm feeling so good about this!


What do you have in store for this week? 

6 comments:

  1. I totally understand your decision to put your other WIP away. I was *thisclose* to doing the same thing, and even took a week off from my WIP to outline a new project. Ultimately I decided to go back to the old book and after thoroughly outlining the rest of it, I feel much more confident about finishing.

    It's good to take a break. Even if you don't go back to your WIP, the work you put into it will make your next project better and stronger. As long as you're writing and happy about it, that's what matters. Good luck! :)

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  2. Sounds like you made the right decision. Maybe you can pick it up again later, or maybe you can just put it down as a learning experience. I'm sure you learned a lot about revising and grew as a writer from it. But if you don't feel it's the "one" in your gut, then it is time to move on to something you feel passionately about.

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  3. I support your decision 100%. I've been feeling the same way about my WIP lately--I still love it, but it's gotten so twisted and complicated and I don't think it's as strong as it could be. Losing my revisions was horrible, but it's made me consider pursuing this new idea instead with the knowledge I've gained. If it feels right, go with it!

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  4. Good luck with the new idea! The snowflake method is excellent. :-)

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  5. I think you made a really great decision to put it away. Maureen Johnson said something at her signing the other day that struck a chord with me. She said that every author should write a few books for practice that they aren't going to publish. While I don't know that I agree, I can see how one shouldn't get caught up on getting that first one published. You can always pick it up and go back. Maybe you just need a fresh piece of work.

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  6. I'm interested to hear how the Snowflake Method works out for you. I've always wanted to try it too.

    I'm in the same place as you as far as letting a manuscript go (at least for awhile). My story started out as something I love and it's morphed so many times now I hardly recognize it. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but I need to let it stew for a good long while so I can figure out how to make it something I love again.

    Enjoy the rest of your Spring Break. You deserve to relax!

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