I know it doesn't sound like a big deal. I'm revising. Things change in revision. That's the point. Chapters get cut. Entire characters get wiped out of existence. I know this.
But this...this thing I'm changing. It was the THING that inspired my story. The very heart of it. And that's not so easy to just let go.
I've known for awhile that it wasn't really working. While it was the thing that launched the story, the story has evolved so much since then. It's been through one major rewrite. Plot elements galore have been added. My main character has REALLY changed.
But this thing stayed.
Because it was THE THING. The inspiration.
I've been writing around it. I've been cutting things that lead up to it. I've been imagining the "I don't really believe she would do this" comments from people.
And...well, I finally accepted it had to go.
It took me a long time to be okay with that, and I think part of this is me finally dealing with my fear. I've been holding on to this element because I'm scared to let it go and scared to really move forward, and, om some level, scared to do what it takes to make this story the best it can be.
I'm doing it, though! I'm doing it! I'm killing those darlings! Watch me go!
The funny thing is, it's really not a huge deal in the big picture of my story. And I'm not totally taking it out. Just changing it a little bit. I'm just feeling like being a little dramatic on a Monday, I guess.
Do you have a hard time letting go of those special things in your stories?